Hey you guys! I know it's like 12:16 in the morning but I am on my grind writing this story. I am absolutely loving the characters I created in this story and my test readers are really on point! Shoutout to my test readers! I will make them unknown until it's time for thank you's in my actual book.lol. I decided to take a break and write on my blog. I'm listening to Pink's "I'm Not Dead" album. This album is definently on point. Not to mention my phone is blowing up in text and calls. People never call or text when you want them to but as soon as you doing something it becomes a hotline.
Some exciting news today! I am like halfway from 800 hits on my website! I thank you guys so much! Even if you just come thru to listen to the music or just my blogs. I love every single one of you for supporting me and my writing and everything I am trying to do. A lot of things I am going to start working on. I am going to start my "One Book Keeps A Child Reading" campaign again. The link will def be on my website and also my adoption campagin. Adoption because it is something I want to do in the near future. So make sure you guys look out for that sometime this week.
Everyone have a safe night and happy hump day!
May 11, 2012 


 ♫♪ My theme song for today is, “I Want You” by Kandi of

It’s  finally Friday blog readers and I hope everyone is starting the weekend in an  amazing and fun yet safe way. I cannot wait to see what the weekend brings my  way.  So I think by now everyone  knows my favorite place in the world is [The Library] because I am always  announcing it on Twitter if you follow me (@nicoleafterjana). I started reading  Dr. Phil’s book,“Self Matters: Creating Your Life From the Inside Out” this book  is so truthful and inspiring. I am now on Chapter 3 so as I continue in the book  I will write an update every day. 

For  chapter 1 and chapter 2, Dr. Phil talks about doing what YOU want to do and  living the life that YOU want to live and not living it for others because when  we do that we become miserable. It’s like are we living or just existing.
Everyone wants to live and some people just go through the motions; and that’s
not living at ALL. If you are going through the motions, you are just selling
yourself short and not living with passion and fire of what you desire the most.
Don’t be controlled by what is expected of you.  Ask  yourself, Is what you doing everyday what you’re living for? Are you fulfilling  your purpose for being on this earth?  Once you stop living that incongruent life and start to hear your own voice, your own  needs, your experience of life will change monumentally. Don’t allow room for  fear and anxiety. Do not fear living the life you want. It is you that matters at the end of the day and that is not being said in a selfish way but in a  confident way. GO AFTER WHAT YOU WANT.  “If  you have no purpose, you have no passion. If you have no passion, you have sold  yourself out” 
Within all of us there are passions that, if acknowledged and  released, will energize and excite the experience of life. There is a whole  other level of existence, distinct from what you do that is the real you and the  substance of who you are.  It is  your authentic self.  Your  authentic self is the person that can be found at your absolute core. The person  you were made to be and want to be that doesn’t cater to anyone else or pays  attention to the next persons thoughts because it does not matter. It’s about  you.  I promise if you get this book and just from reading the first  two chapters you will not be able to put it down especially if your looking for  a change and want the life that you can create and have. Time is everything so I  suggest you get on it.  I know some people that are in their late 20’s early 30’s who  have done NOTHING with their life and just talk about what they are going to do  thinking something is going to eventually fly down from the sky and say, “Hey I  am going to give you everything you want and you don’t have to work one day for
it because you’re not even doing that now.” Well, life does not work like that.
Or those family members who think that one talented {individual} in their family
who has passion for their gift and plans on making it big one day is going to
look out for them. It definitely does not work that way either. Have your own
success and find what you want to do instead of waiting on the next person or
being a copycat and fictional person. It’s not being sarcastic or anything
because I’ll tell you right now if my books become best sellers and turn into
movies .  I leave with this: “Unlock your true passion, strengths, gifts,
and talents.” Trust me it is possible.  I definitely don’t want to be like some people at the age of 28  or 30 living at home with my mom wasting time or tweeting on twitter or updating  a Facebook yet I am not doing anything in my own life. I am talking about the  real world not the computer life.  Get busy living life.

One love,

Jana Nicole

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♫♪My theme song for today is, “Avalanche” By Marie  Digby♫♪


 ♥So you guys know I am a HUGE FAN of Japanese music and their
culture. Why? I think it’s more because I love to read their books. (They read
them backwards)  I also like their  TV shows as well and movies. So I was searching for a Pandora station with Japanese music and finally found one.  Now, I am trying to learn a little
Japanese and will update my progress on here about that.♥ 
These past couple of weeks has been very awesome and
entertaining! ☺☺

I have been enjoying my break from college and meeting new
people. I have come a very long way from being shy and anti-social. I think it
was more of I hated that people teased me for the way I talk or me being a
different and unique individual but now as I grow each day I realize that is
just me and I can only be me. 

So I’ve been telling my mother for a couple weeks now I am
confused about a lot of things in life. Like school, work, and who I am. School
because I honestly need a break and I need a break because I have been going for
16 years and I am tired. Work because I have been surrounded by so many negative
people and I really want to self-publish until I eventually get a book deal that
I want. It’s so frustrating when I have people telling me things and it is not
in a positive way. I decided that I don’t want a mentor or anything like that
& I’m just going to do what is best for Jana. 

Every now and then I’ll share what is up in my personal life.
Well, I meant someone and we are friends right now but I really am feeling him.
So blog readers you have to help me out with this. So, we’ve been spending time
with each other and taking things slowly and I actually like it. He is from
London, England and he is really hot. If we ever become a couple I will post
pictures until then it’s on the hush.Just know he is completely my type and I am officially fu****
with a boss. Lol.

I’ve had my fun these last couple weeks so now it’s time to get
back to work on, “China White: The Story of Jani Nicola Pauldin” This is my
bullying story and my experience with bullying and how it has affected me from
the past and now the present. So I will let you guys know when it is completed
and post three sample chapters.

Until next time stay blessed and remember, “Life is about making
mistakes, just don’t make a habit of making the same ones over.” 
Jana Pauldo