My theme song for today is "I Remember" by Mary J. Blige!

I love Mary! Her music is my life!

Today is Saturday and it is so hot outside!! Yesterday it was 102 degrees out in Atlanta, GA. They saying its going to be like that for the next couple of days. I just hope it rains soon because this is ridiculous. This heat is no joke. Everyone please stay cool and if you don't have to go anywhere then you shouldn't because this has been the warning on the news.

I have no idea what I want to talk about on my blog today. Isn't that something? lol.

For one, I want to say God is so good. He has blessed me in more ways than enough and I am blessed to be a blessing. When I didn't think HE would be there HE showed up today and made me see that HE would never just desert me. Even if people in the flesh have done it to you, it does not matter because HE will never leave nor forsake you. I just want to say thank you God for allowing me to be able to find a part-time job and for allowing me to keep my apartment up going on a year now. A lot of people WISH they were in my position. They wish they could do the things I am doing now. I am just so blessed! I feel like things are going to get better for me. I feel like I am so close to my dreams its not even funny. I have finally humbled my heart.

You have to learn how to be humble in order to allow God to take your blessings to the next step. I learned that. At 24 years old, I feel like I really have it together and was taking it for granted. I just couldn't see it at first. Maybe because I was younger but now that I am wiser I have learned that good things will come to those who wait. I know one day that all my dreams will come true...I just know J.Nicole NY

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Hey Blog Readers! I hope everyone is enjoying their week! Today is the first day of summer. Wow! I feel like I am living in a maze. Why? Because my life is constantly going around and around and showing me different things. I am being enlightened each day. Time is everything to me. Today I am addressing the fact that when people think things are a joke and they constantly keep testing you trying to push your buttons and as soon as you retaliate and get even then they want you to stop. They want to make it seem like everything is your fault when in fact, they are the ones detached from REALITY. Last night I recieved an email which was very NEGATIVE. I found myself laughing because even though I am FED up, I am definently becoming stronger because I have kept my head up after everything. I have come so far and have remained positive no matter what and how bad they want to see me down. It is not happening. It's so funny after trying so many years with so one and they wont nothing to do with you and now the tables turned and now they want to threaten for slander and cry out to you and you just don't care. Why? Because you have closed that chapter in your life and realize you want to accept it for what it is. I am not scared of anything that comes my way I have finally got over my fear and I am standing tall and standing up for myself. Regardless of the situation, I speak the truth and facts and let my fans know what is going on with me. Eveything is perfectly fine in my life but when you hurt people for no reason there's something by the name of Karma that will sneak up on you and you never see it coming.
Continue to have a bless week everyone!

Life is…

Life to me is a journey and you never know really which road to choose. I
have been through a lot in my life. Some things by choice and other things were
thrown my way. Many times I felt like giving up but I didn’t. I just cried and
cried thinking, why me? What am I going to do? It even felt like I would just
take my own life. I felt alienated. But prayer changes everything and I know God
will never put more on me than I can handle. It is getting so tough out here and
a lot of people are expecting me to fail but I promise I will not lose. The ones
mainly close to me. I have no fear because I know with God I can do anything and
accomplish anything that I want to do in [my] life. I had my first major setback
this year and I am finally learning to accept it for what it is. I am finally
learning to accept the fact that I am alone in life but not by choice. I didn’t
grow up in a two parent fairy tale home or television. That’s just the way life
turned out for me. But no matter what the only person that can judge me is God.
As bad as I want to move up to NY with family so I won’t be alone I know right
now that is not where I should be and it is for a reason. I wish on a star every
night to be a part of a family or have a circle of people that will accept me.
However, I want to learn to love myself first more than anything. People look at
me and say I am pretty well I know I am unique in my own way and one day I pray
I can see myself for what everyone else does. I just have been through so many
changes. I appreciate all my blessings no matter how small.

Most think I want to move up to New York to follow my dreams as a writer but
that is not true. I want to move to be with my family. I know nothing happens
over night even though I wish it did. But, God has a plan for my life so I have
to wait and do everything on his time. My family up there has shown me so much
love and have been so good to me. I am so use to being hurt and they welcome me
with open arms and I know it is real. At first, I was a little hesitant but now
I am not. That’s why it is hard for me to see them and then leave to come back
to Atlanta because I get a little down because it is back to reality for me.
Coming home to an apartment by myself in a city and state with just me. This is
my life… I am learning to accept it however because I cannot allow anything in
until I do.

Who wants to accept being alone and being hurt by the ones that you trusted
though? No one does. But this is the life I was given. Sometimes, it does get
hard but I know eventually my life will get better and I will have a family of
my own to love and care for because no one should have to go through some of the
things I have. I wouldn’t wish it on my own enemy.

Everyone have a great week

Inside my mind…